I was just tired of waiting. Like I want to rest but I can’t for the reason of holding on to the possibility that everything will be the way I wanted to be someday. Like I don’t want to missed any single opportunity that may come. But ugh, I feel hopeless. And I really don’t know if I still can. But i wanna break down. I’m falling into pieces. Knowing that there’s no sense of waiting, but I still did. I feel stupid but I just can’t stop waiting. If I could just shout it out and ask if it’s worth the wait. So that I may know if I’ll let go or hold on tighter.
the concept of liking someone and them liking you back and you deciding to date each other literally just fucking baffles me because it has never once happened for me in my entire life
how are you all doing this
how are you people making it look so easy
how are you finding people who like you back and want to date you and then actually do it
A lot of people complain about the night, and how lonely they feel inside their bed. But that’s not how it works for me. I notice I’m lonely at 9 am. When the sun wakes me up and everything is silent around me. I notice I’m lonely at 1 pm. When I walk down the street knowing I have no one to go visit. I notice I’m lonely at 3 pm. When I draw on my yellow paper knowing there’s no one to say “This drawing is from me to you. I think about you a lot. ” I notice I’m lonely at 6 pm. When I look in the mirror and my body is untouched. There’s no sign of someone else living, touching, breathing my body. It makes me sad thinking how much love I’m willing to give and it’s all going wasted because after all, maybe some people aren’t made to be with someone.
"Ih! Wag ka nga mag-isip ng ganyan! Sana palang di ko na sinabi sayo noh. Nakakainis ka. Iniisip mo nyan bobo ka eh. Magagalit ako sige. Hindi. Sabihin mo muna saken na hindi yun yung iniisip mo. Tsk. Di mo ko nadisappoint. Matalino ka." - Christian Domingo. When you’re in self-pity because of little imperfections, and a friend tries to do everything to encourage you. Nuxx:")